Just finished my black raspberry icecream with pretzel sticks it was satisfying.
So I have widdled down my reader list to only 4 people so if you are reading this you guessed it you are part of the coffee time group and are one of the select few that is going to experience the Miranda Experience. I decided to do something a bit different with this blog for now. I am going to write some of my deeper thoughts. I hope I don't regret it. Lately when I have shared deeper thoughts I usually do regret it. And why is that I think it's probably my pride. Afraid of how it made me look or sometimes it's just that my thoughts change so quickly at times that I don't want people to think I still feel a certain way.
It's like this. There have been a lot of alter calls lately at church some lately about having faith and if you don't have it come get prayed for. Well, Sunday mornings I usually feel fine I'm not feeling without faith cause I'm able to worship and usually during worship I'm feeling just fine cause I'm focusing on God. But ask me any day during the week and you will here a different story most of the time. Why because I'm not focusing on God I am only looking at my circumstance and the circumstance looks so bleak. So yes I am struggling with faith here at home.
Next thing. I just finished reading Grace's post on the church blog and I feel discouraged. Why? Because when there is talk of how wonderful relations are between the pastors wives it makes me realize again how much I do not know them aside from you Cynthia. Here's the thing I think we are really missing something here with the pastors wives. We don't get to hear from them very often to experience the wisdom and faith building things they have to say. We used to have ladies meetings and I really benefited from them not to mention those teachings would help you to get to know your pastors wives but more then that it helped us get to know each other more especially ladies you may not get to know any other way. I know we cannot all know our pastors wives cause that would be spreading them to thin but through ladies meetings we could get a window into there lives. I have asked some of the pastors about ladies meetings but have gotten no answer. I don't know why? Time is just going by more and more it's been like 5 years already that nothing is happening with the ladies. I try to trust these men with making the right choices for what our church needs. But right now it feels like a man's world here at Crossway. Yes, I do pray about it. This feeling in my heart has been here for years and it's not going anywhere. So what do you do with that? Do you keep asking the pastors for what you want or do you just say let it go? I know my father in heaven knows what I need but I know to he uses each of us to spur one another on in good deeds.
Tell me your thoughts ladies.
much love
me
